Wednesday, April 17, 2013

Life continued...

The rest of October
So after Jaycee was born, we still had no name for her.  I was hoping/expecting that after everything I went through to have her Tyson would finally just give in and jump on board with my choices...  He didn't.  Instead he "veto'd" them and told me he still really wanted his pick.  And since there was no way I was naming her his pick, we were back to square one.  So frustrating.  And I was sooo exhausted.  So they moved us to my new room, and we were talking and people kept asking us what her name was, and Jaycee randomly just popped into my head!  So I said, what about Jaycee?  (Fully expecting to be shot down, like my 2985893 suggestions before had been)  and he goes, ok.  I like Jaycee...
ARE YOU KIDDING??  haha we argued about her name for 9 months and then it was that easy?  We decided next baby we arent even talking about names till they are here. 
Ok...I'm gunna be honest here...I dealt with being pregnant and throwing up all the time pretty well.  I expected that to be awful, so I was mentally prepared to deal with it.  Being in labor for 18+ hours was hard, but I expected labor and delivering a baby to be hard, so I dealt pretty good with that too...
No one, not in all my millons of conversations with moms everywhere, ever mentioned to me that recovering from having a baby could also be very hard.  So no, I can't say I dealt with that very well.  haha...I would LOVE to be one of those amazing super women who jumped right out of bed and didn't need any pain killers, and functioned great on the lack of sleep they got those first few weeks, but I'll be honest.  I wasn't.  haha I WAS IN PAIN.  And I WAS TIRED.  And I WAS NOT EXPECTING IT!  
Call me nieve, but I don't really know what I thought was going to happen after I actually had my baby.  To be honest, I don't think I ever actually thought about life after I wasn't pregnant any more. 
Between my crushed (not really but it felt like it) tail bone, and my milk coming in (ok, I guess thats not awful for everyone, but it was for me) and the crazy hormones, there were A LOT of tears that week.  haha I was a mess...And honestly don't think I couldn't have done it without my mom there!  Kudos to all those amazing people who do it on their own...

LUCKILY I had this amazing little girl to make it all worth it!  

Brand new baby yawns are the best...

First Bath at home!!  Wasn't the biggest fan...

But, she was the cutest in her baby towel!

Classic family picture...notice I had no pants that fit yet...rocking the yoga pants still



We were VERY grateful for grandma that week

AND uncle Brad!  He learned way too much about what girls go through post baby though I think haha 

Monday, April 8, 2013

I'm BACK?

Hmmm...turns out people actually read my blog!  And they wanted me to write again!  (Ok, its my mom and my grandma, but it still made me feel special!)
So, lots has happened since I wrote my last blog post!!  mostly, this little gem:

 Except she looked more like this at first:


Seriously, what a cute baby right??  I'd go into a ton of details about how I was in labor for 18 hours and how my epidural was beautiful, until it wore off every hour and a half then I would turn into the grumpiest in labor person ever, or how I pushed for 2 hours and and after all that when she FINALLY came out of me they realized she was facing up instead of down, which apparently was why she was soooo unbelievably hard to get out of me, and why my tail bone felt like someone hit it with a sledge hammer over and over, but you know, it was such a long time ago I'm pretty much over it now...

So I guess I'll just try to do a quick recap of the last 8 months or whatever its been since I blogged last! :)  and I'll post some pictures cuz thats the best part!! 

September:
Boring...I was mostly just extremely prego and HOT.  Thats all I really remember.  I unpacked the rest of my house, and worked a bunch...still threw up almost every day...MAN I miss being pregnant...not really...
We set up Jaycee's room, still had no idea we were going to name her Jaycee...that wasn't even an option yet...

Here is a nice prego picture for you!  haha and nice neatly folded towels hanging in the background (Thanks Tyson)  Technically this was the day before I had Jaycee, so this is actually an October picture, BUT I didn't take a lot of prego pics of myself...
I still look at this and die at how that was actually possible to grow so much...

October:
This was such a happy/painful month!  haha I worked my shifts the first half, then was scheduled to get induced on the 12.  Except they were so busy I had to keep calling back every 2 hours all day long because they had no room for me at the hospital.  Then around 3 in the afternoon I started having contractions pretty good and by 5:30 I wondered if we should just go in anyways!  Then by about 6 they slowed down a ton...then at 8 ish they called me and told me to come in and get induced!!  They told me when I came in that I was already having good contractions...clearly I knew that too, and was already dilated to a 4, so they just broke my water and started me on a really low dose of pitocin.  
I changed my mind PS...I'll give you a short version of the Jaycee story...I should write it down somewhere haha. 
So, the nurse told me after they broke my water it would be a while before I started to really feel anything...WRONG!!  I was instantly in labor!  I tried telling her I was in a lot of pain, and I really wanted my epidural, and she kept telling me they didnt want me to get it until I was actually in labor...all I knew is I was dying and if this wasnt really labor I didnt want to know what real labor was! This was about midnight ish...FINALLY at 3 I made her check me cuz I was pretty sure I couldnt handle not being in labor anymore...so she did and was SHOCKED that I was dilated to a 6!  She goes, Oh my!  Ya I'll go page the anesthesiologist and we'll get that epidural...
thanks...
Turns out in the middle of the night it takes 45 more minutes for the anesthesiologis to get to the hospital so it was about 3:45 before I got that in...best part of that whole story is that the nurse woke Tyson up and said, you better come and hold you wifes hand or she's gunna be REALLY mad at you in the morning...
Anyways...epidurals are amazing...seriously best I'd felt in 3 months to be honest...and I slept till around 7 I think!  Then the Dr came in and checked me, and I was still at a 6, but he said, by the way you are progressing, I'd say worst case scenario you will be eating lunch today... 
WRONG.  
Turns out I was still dilated to a 6 at 11.  And to make it worse, my epidural had worn off a couple times and so they had to keep tracking down the anesthesiologist to give me more drugs...basically thats how my day went...
At noon, the doc came in and said if I hadnt progressed still they were going to put something in there to measure how strong my contractions were...lucky me I was almost a 7 then!  
at 1 I was actually a 7....
at 2:30 I was at an 8...and my epidural had worn off again
at 2:45 Tyson tried to eat a kit kat in front of me, and I politely asked him not to (or gave him a death glare and yelled at him to put it away) 
at 3:30 I was still at an 8...
also at 3:30 I still hadnt got me epidural fixed...there were some tears at that point...
at 3:40 I got my epidural fixed and fell asleep almost instantly...
at 4:15 they woke me up and checked me again...10!!  What??  I had no idea!  haha the nurse was like, don't you feel any pressure or anything?  apparently you are supposed to feel pressure even with the epidural...but nope...
So I started pushing...and I'd push so good...and she didnt come out.  After an hour of pushing my epidural wore off...sweet, but by that point I just wanted her out!  Every time I finished pushing they would say, next push for sure, she'll be here.  She wasn't.  The doctor pulled out the suction... He pulled SOOOO hard while I was pushing he actually pulled the suction right off her head...(worst sound ever by the way, I was pretty sure it took all her skin with it...) Later Tyson told me he was pretty amazed at how rough they were getting her out...I didn't really notice in the moment!  FINALLY after another hour of pushing, she came out and everyone in the room went OHHHHH, and the doctor said, She's a star gazer!!  
...Like that meant anything to me...I figured something was wrong with her eyes...
But apparently that means she came out facing the wrong way, meaning she couldnt bend the way she needed to so she could just slip out quickly...also meaning she put a ridiculous amount of pressure on my tail bone during the delivery...seriously I'm crying remembering the pain...The doc told me its pretty much equivalent to pushing out a 2 lbs heavier baby!  Lucky me...
So, she was a meconium baby, meaning they took her away from me as soon as she was born so they could make sure she was breathing good and all that...honestly I was so exhausted it didnt even phase me...I just made Tyson feed me chicken nuggets cuz I was too tired to feed myself!  haha Finally after a little while they let me hold her...it was pretty amazing to meet this little girl!!  Seriously we are pretty obsessed with this little girl and can't even remember what life was like without her!!

Anyways....phew...that was long...so I'll update on November - Now later...now I'll just post some sweet pics! 
Just getting started...we had NO idea what we were in for haha



Haha...seriously...I was so excited!



haha Freshly born!!  I though she was the cutest...makes me laugh now...her poor squished head....she's WAY cuter now...no worries



Seriously, she was half an inch longer on the day she was born than at her first checkup a week later...pretty sure it was cuz her head was so squished!  Thats what happens when you get stuck in a birth canal for 2 hours! 


Just getting weighed



I like this picture cuz it shows how bruised her head was the next day from the suction...poor Jaycee..




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